Every February-March since I was in college, I ritualized a “spring detox”. More often than not, this diet consisted of drinking an absurd number of fruit infused water in mason jars and convincing people around me I was practicing a “low calorie” eating period. I told myself it was a great way to “reset my body”, but in reality it was an excuse control my weight and continue an unhealthy relationship with food. What started as a way to lose a few pounds, became a tradition centered around fasting and triggering periods of anorexia.
This year, I started anticipating what my spring detox would look like – and I didn’t like what I saw. I hate feeling hungry and weak. I hate disrupting my digestive system for what feelings like a month afterwards. The yearly tradition is not working – and I don’t think it ever did. Repeating a diet like that feels like a step back in the wrong direction, and I’m outgrowing a mindset that involves being self-aware, but refusing to treat my soul and body with kindness. Healing my body image issues will continue to be an ongoing journey, but turning the spring detox into something beneficial is something in my control.
For the next 30 days, I’ll be creating habits centered around building confidence and healthy emotional wellness – without trying to limit food intake or change current dietary habits. Starting March 10th and ending on April 8th, I’ll be following the guideline below, and documenting the process. Feel free to follow along at your own pace, or pick and choose what content or practices you want to dive into.
Write in a journal everyday- 5 things I love about myself and 5 realistic tasks I will complete that day.
Work a hobby and document progress – For 1 hour everyday, I’ll be practicing a creative project. Personally, I’ll be practicing piano, as it’s been a hobby I’ve grown frustrated by a fear of failure.
Solution Based Media Consumption:
Detoxes and diets are fueled on a mindset of taking things away rather than offering solution based alternatives. Rather than attempting to take social media and “time wasting” habits off the table, I’ll be using the internet and what it has to offer to my advantage. After 30 days I will have watched all videos listed below:
Daily Affirmations: I’ll be reciting the same mantra to myself everyday in front of a mirror. I want to credit @ambriahartie (TikTok handle) for introducing me to this affirmation. You can check out her other videos about self development – and below is the written version:
I attract love to me easily
I am grateful for the love I receive
The more I love myself, the more I attract my desires
I show myself love easily
Compassion is my natural way of being
I am so loved, because I am me
I deserve every ounce of love I receive
Read a book for (minimum) 30 minutes a day: Reading is a hobby I give excuse after excuse to avoid. During this focused period, I will be pushing myself in the right direction for becoming a regular reader.
Starting this project and sharing the journey through my blog will hold myself accountable for finishing the full 30 days. Through the process, I’ll be taking videos and pictures, and I can’t wait to share them after it’s over.
2021 is the year of “working the muscle” that is self love, confidence, and wellness. Now that you’ve gotten through this post: the challenge is on! With optimism, a little bit of discipline, and forgiveness – there is no way we can fail.